I have been feeling suffocated since I started my Advanced-level curriculum. I hated to exist when I am awake, I felt so pressed in the past 2 months. I have never thought of life being that harsh.

It's like I've been sucking into a hurricane. I was very moody, I got pissed off very easily. I ran away when my friends needed me many times, as I didn't want to hurt them. I always thinking of shouting at them whenever they had problems, they looked stupid and annoying in my eyes, and I knew that wasn't me, that's why I ran away. I knew there's nothing wrong with them, I'm the one who had problems. I'm so thankful that they tolerated my bad manners, we are still friends.

Somehow, things are getting better, I don't know if the workload is being less heavy or Im adopting, I feel more positive towards the school, though I failed in Business Studies in the term test. There are about 10~15 assignments from the school a week, the assignments never make me crazy, I couldn't help myself from complaining, swearing and crying. The assignments are, however, no longer painful to me. C:

Thanks for those who have supported and tolerated me.